i am losing faith
in my city,
in those who i once believed kept me upright,
withstanding and steady.
i am reminded of the toxicity of humanity,
of all the ways we deconstruct one another,
take advantage of the pains
that sit deep beneath our ribs,
tangled in exposed nerve endings
that never seem to stop hurting,
and of the reasons we all say "never again."
whether this bridge, held by pity and guilt,
on its own
or i leave it to burn,
i will lose everything i spent my life trying to save.